This year

I will talk by numbers and targets but not losing sight on the process that comes along with achieving them. These targets are negotiable since I do not believe in 'perfect' being much less a 'perfect' world. Nevertheless, these are the numbers.

• 7-8 hours of quality sleep. For the love of the universe, this has been an elusive dream and I do not know why. I usually got 5-6 hours on the average. I can still get 7-8 sleep hours but they are rare. Ok naman na ang 5-6 hours. But I feel 7-8 hours of sleep can make a big difference.  Feeling ko talaga 'Quality of Life' ang hatid pag maganda at sapat ang tulog mo. Imagine all the anxiety, buraot the lack of sleep can bring. It can even give you enemies simply because antok ka pa kinabukasan. Char. Good sleep gives you focus, can recharge your soul, can very well give you the added boost of confidence to deal the challenges of the next day. It is all simply because you have a good sleep. Read 'Why We Sleep' by Dr. Matthew Walker, it's all there. Gusto ko lang naman consistent. Yung magpapadjama levels ka, maliligo, mag na night cream, mag didim ng lights at magprepray, mag night jazz, magbabasa ng libro, mag no notes, at ang pinaka importante sa lahat - hindi titingin sa cellphone. Believe me this is way harder than I thought. 
• 40% reduction screen time. I am thinking if I can reduce my screen time to 40% from what I do now, I can read more books, do more physical and creative activities, be more sociable and write and post about them! My meaning of screen time is 'useless' social media random time, random youtubing and mobile game. Most of the time I do guilt trip but somehow I think I do not have much options how to 'make libang' to myself. Here I go again. All these excuses. 
• 80% life debt reduction. Like any freakin' responsible adults, I  pay my outstanding life debts. Sometimes, it makes me sad that I get to think about it as if they can become so determining factor for me. 'Hindi naman mawawalan ang gastusin,' said one of my good friend. I have a major debt and I cannot wait to write it off this year. 'Magtira ka naman for yourself. Huwag ka namang 'agit', my friend added.The debt has been manageable. Kailangan ko lang maging consistent and do away with the 'unnecessary' gastusin.    
• 40 acts of kindness. Yes, I am turning 40. Gone are the days, char, but here comes a new chapter. I can tell you more about it in the next blog. I want to celebrate in my own meaningful way. So I will make an extra effort in showing my love to the people I love and to the genuine people who care for me. I have been thinking about it, nawala yung pagka 'thoughtful' ko in my 30s. I want to reclaim this spirit. So what does this even mean, 40 Acts of Kindness? It's the everyday thoughtful things, the milestones you share with your family and friends and even to yourself, talk about self care. And the small gifts that you share with them. I want this to be freeflowing. I want this to be au naturel so I will not be pressured.  
• 12 books. Need I say more? Since I arrived here, I have already 'hoarded' seven books and I only 'almost finished' one. Oh well, what can I say but need to finish them all. Since I am book hoarder, I resolve to myself that I cannot help it anymore. But will try to be practical at best. I am a slow reader, that's why, and I get to enjoy it. I do not know, I seem to be fine with buying books and reading them later. It's a guilty pleasure.  
• One (1) new blog. This blog is personal, even overpersonal and frankly, I want to remain it this way, hidden. But I also want to show the other side of me. I am thinking a new blog where I can just dump in all my interests, thoughts, reviews, and essays. And perhaps after few years, I can consolidate all them. It may be an intellectual journey but nah, intellectualizing makes it so hard and it just leaves everything so open. The new blog does not need to be so serious. It does not need to be overdetailed. I just want it to be a 'professional' repository of some sort.  
• Five (5) published articles. No, I won't stop. I will 'painstakingly' find time to write and make it work out. I will search opportunities where I can contribute - essays, reseach, articles, and literary briefs. Mainstream is not a priority though. I just hope there are a lot of really good opportunities out there for me to share my voice. And I think it is high time.  

That's it for 2021. It's not easy plus the fact that there is work and COVID-19. May the Divine bless us all.